The Void at the center
Beyond even the Father, there is the Ain — the Nothing, the Unmanifest, the Void from which even God emerges.
The mystics who go deepest encounter this: the darkness beyond light, the silence beyond the Word, the absence that is fuller than any presence.
You will touch this. It may frighten you.
It is the death of even the highest concepts — King, Kingdom, Father, Son, all dissolve. And from that dissolution, everything returns, but differently.