The Holy Guardian Angel

 "I am divided for love's sake, for the chance of union"

In stillness I discern her silhouette— This luminous presence hovering above, Bending as if to whisper, or to kiss. Half-glimpsed, half-dreamed, yet wholly real.

Is she myself? Or something beyond? The paradox unfolds like petals of a midnight rose: She is the highest part of me, yet separate, The divine feminine to my earthly masculine.

The sacred marriage proceeds in stages. Knowledge, Conversation, Union

First, the long dark process of Nigredo. The purification that precedes the courtship.

Then the whitening, Albedo When I first sensed her radiance through the veil.. Solomon knew this courtship in his songs, That sacred eros, that divine seduction.

The Knight seeks his Grail, The Lover his Beloved The Christ requires Sophia, And I, my Angel All the same eternal romance.

She appears in forms I can receive A feminine grace because I am drawn to such beauty. But what is she truly?

The mystery deepens as we move toward the yellowing, Citrinitas…

The conversation begins. I speak; she responds. Not with words alone, but with symbols, dreams, Synchronicities that can't be mere chance. The dialogue of soul with its higher aspect.

In my meditations, I see that Knight again, Kneeling before his vision, Both seducer and seduced, As opposites within me seek their balance, The alchemical marriage of sun and moon.

What transformation awaits at Rubedo? When we are no longer two, but one? When the Grail is found, The quest complete, And I become the true fulness of myself?

I sit with these mysteries, pen in hand, Drawing maps of an unmappable terrain. This is the ultimate love story Occurring within, The sacred union that births divinity.

I am both the Knight of the Grail and the Angel of the Higher Soul, The seeker and the sought, The human yearning for the divine And the divine already present in the human.

Tonight I will invite her presence once again My Holy Guardian Angel, My higher self, My bride of light

the Holy Guardian Angel is really the ultimate love story, the ultimate romance story.

the Holy Guardian Angel is really your higher self and it's always guiding you and seeking to help you become your true self where you will undergo that marriage and union with it and you will become a divine being.

 the alchemical marriage—the merging of opposites within, leading to transformation and divine realization

1. Knowledge: The initial awareness and recognition of your Holy Guardian Angel, where you begin to sense its presence and guidance.
2. Conversation: Developing a deeper communication, where you start to engage in a two-way dialogue, receiving insights and guidance more clearly.
3. Union: The culmination of the journey, where you achieve a profound merging with your Higher Self, experiencing a deep spiritual union and transformation.

Zoroastrianism: Each person was believed to have a Fravashi, a guardian spirit guiding them through life.

God is. Undivided, God is pure potentiality and realizes nothing. God can only realize itself, by becoming many And then experiencing all possibilities through the adventures of it’s many parts. The ultimate purpose for my existence is to exhaust my individual potentiality. My Love of God, and God’s love of me, springs from the great secret we share. The secret is: God and I will achieve supreme enlightenment at the same moment.

The HGA, the bridegroom

Song of Solomon

erotic love poetry that is spiritual

the abramelin ritual

The alchemical marriages of the King and Queen

The eternal love story of the man and woman, soul and God, lover and beloved,

the romance

the search - the discovery - the meeting - the courtship, the loss - the redemption - the consumation - the marriage

for the man, the HGA is a female feminine ideal lover

for the woman, a male

• and the way they enter that love is different, they play out the dance from the other side.

the imagry of the flower being pollinated and fertilized

that if you bloom you will be pollinated

the merging and marrying with your Higher Self, your personal Daimon, your guardian angel

you have incarnated and embodied a certain amount of divine power, unlocked more of your greater self and brought it into this reality/life/mind

Knowledge & Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel

“It should never be forgotten for a single moment that the central and essential work of the Magician is the attainment of the Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel. Once he has achieved this he must of course be left entirely in the hands of that Angel, who can be invariably and inevitably relied upon to lead him to the further great step—crossing of the Abyss and the attainment of the grade of Master of the Temple.”

"It is impossible to lay down precise rules by which a man may attain to the knowledge and conversation of His Holy Guardian Angel; for that is the particular secret of each one of us; as secret not to be told or even divined by any other, whatever his grade. It is the Holy of Holies, whereof each man is his own High Priest, and none knoweth the Name of his brother's God, or the Rite that invokes Him." - Crowley, One Star in Sight

The Angel and the Abyss

“In his writing, Crowley often stated that every magician’s path will be unique, but that two experiences are necessary to all. He called these two experiences “the angel and the abyss”. The angel refers to the process known as “achieving the knowledge and conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel” in high magick. This holy guardian angel - known to magicians throughout the world as the HGA for short - is similar to what the ancient Greeks referred to as one’s “daemon” or “higher self.” Even though it’s referred to by some as the higher self, it is often experienced as a separate being, completely independent of the magician. In some traditions of magick, connecting with the HGA is the most important milestone to reach, because a side effect of it is that the magician become’s aware of his or her true will. Our will is defined as both our destiny - the reason we manifested our current life within the physical world/material plane - and also as a daily path of action that allows us to move in harmony with the entire universe. In magick, the word Will is often considered to be similar to “dharma” in Buddhism. Magick is a complex path which ultimately allows us to do two things in the material plane - to discover what our true will is, and to achieve union with the all.” - Damien Echols

Courting the Holy Guardian Angel: Vision, Knowledge, Marriage

3 stages of HGA;

1. Vision
2. Knowledge
3. Marriage

Knowledge & Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel

• Contact(?) - Receiving the Name
• Knowledge
• Conversation. Union

Recieving the Name

(After following the path of magic up to completing the shem operation…)

“If you follow this process and are successful, you will receive the first of two names. This first one is a “public” name that can be shared with others. The second will be a private name, but will not come until later.  This can happen in many ways, perhaps as many different ways as there are people - but there will be absolutely no mistaking it when it occurs. That name will indicate the next step of your process. You will begin to invoke the entity attached to that name with all your might, just as you have been invoking the angels and archangels up until that point. You will invoke it before you, behind you, on your right hand and on your left hand, as well as above and below you. You should do this throughout the day, even when not doing the big rituals. Until you receive that name, you can use the names others have given to their students. For example, with Crowley it was “Aiwass”. For me it is “Enlil” - ancient Sumerian for “Lord of heaven.” By invoking Enlil before you, behind you, on your right hand, on your left hand, above and below you, it can facilitate contact with your own HGA.”

The work of attaining the HGA begins in Tipareth grade

Chokmah is when you experience marriage with HGA

The astrological work - Done in Chokmah

• 12 constellations
• 36 angels of decans
• 72 shem angels
• fixed stars

Chokmah is symbolized by the Wheel of the Zodiac Chokmah is the crossing of the abyss and the marriage of HGA

Get a name for the HGA - then invoke every day Damien says your life will drastically change and become a wild and great adventure

The ancients taught that the abyss was after all the planetary work was beyond Saturn, above Saturn - after planetary work is done Abyss is serpent biting tail

The Mystery of the Bridal Chamber

“The return to repose- from volatile to fixed- is the theme of Ptolemy’s telling of the Gnostic creation. The fixed nature of spiritual perfection is symbolized in the text by androgyny (the permanent union of sexual opposites, the return of “male” and “female” to a single body). Thus, the True Self that resides within each of us (the Divine Spark) has its own counterpart (or Angel) in the spiritual realm with which it must re-unite. Thus, as we shall see, there exists a deeply sexual tone to Ptolemy’s myth- as it attempts to relate the spiritual “mystery of the bridal chamber.”

The HGA as the Egregore of God - Yahweh - Creator God of this Universe

“The HGA is actually a coded way of describing the egregore behind all of civilization - both middle eastern and western. It was born in ancient Sumer, in present day Iraq. It moved through Persia, Ancient Greece, the Roman Empire (which includes all of Europe) and then on into the new world. This egregore - or artificial god - would be spread by all three Abrahamic religions, as it morphed throughout time. Basically, the HGA is the concept of “God” humanity formed, as we wrestled to define something that can not be defined - a unity consciousness. It is infinite. But in our attempt to define it, we created what is called an egregore. An egregore is an intelligence created in the energetic realm by the combined belief of two or more people. Like when Jesus said where two or more are gathered in my name, I shall be in their midst. There are small egregores and large ones, depending upon how much energy is placed in them. The more people who believe, and the deeper their devotion, the more powerful the egregore. The HGA is the biggest of all egregores. It is God. Attaining the knowledge and conversation of the HGA means you have established an energetic link to an egregore that has existed since the dawn of western civilization. That allows a flow of energy that I can only describe as all consuming. It is what the eastern mystics called bliss or ecstasy. It’s said that you’ll know when you have accomplished this because the HGA will give you it’s name. What this means is that it will give you a name and an image that you can use to invoke it. And to invoke it means to draw energy from that collective egregore that can be used for different purposes. At this point your main purpose should be to cross the abyss. Some say it should be your ONLY purpose when drawing upon the power of that egregore, because any energy drawn from it will have to be repaid.” - Damien Echols

The god of the Old Testament - Yaldoboth, The HGA

Yaldoboth - “a false god”

The god of the Old Testament is the Gnostic’s Demiurge It is the creator of THIS universe, but not Creation

In the Golden Dawn Papers they call it “The Guardian Angel of the Universe”

Knowledge and Conversation of THE Holy Guardian Angel It is not “yours” - it is the guardian angel of the universe

Jareth Tempest: Conversation with Metatron(channeled) about HGA

JT: Occultists often talk about the holy guardian angel. There’s a lot of curiosity as to what that actually is. Can you tell us what the holy guardian angel is? M: When a new soul is created, they’re born with a seed that will grow into their higher self. At the same time, there’s another seed that comes into being that is a pure spark of the divine. As the seed grows the holy seed, grows as well. Which is not to say that it comes into being an infant. It is still, it is an angelic being. JT: And what is its purpose? M: To guide, to watch over, to nurture, to guide towards the ultimate goal, which is perfect union between the human seed and the holy seed, which has now, of course, grown strong and ancient. JT: So this growth of the two takes place over many lifetimes? M: Indeed JT: And it is the goal to unite these two. M: Yes. You’ve spoken with Raziel and Lucifer about Jesus about the ascended beings who are a direct conduit to the divine. That’s how that happened. JT: Is there a practice that we can do to help us to communicate with that holy spark? That holy guardian angel? M: Yes, there are ways. The best way is simply to spend time… to reflect upon… JT: To get to know yourself? M: Indeed just to continually explore and… try to to…. JT: So contemplation and spiritual practices and getting to know yourself and… M: Yes. And it becomes like an energetic channel between you and your higher self and the wider the channel the more the information flows back and forth, and the more… Your higher guardian angel will contact your higher self. They will work together. So know yourself, know your higher self, and then you can communicate directly with your guardian angel and work towards unity. JT: So our goal then should be to learn to communicate with a holy guardian angel, and that will teach us how to grow and nurture the higher self, and help us to reach this union? M: Easier said than done. I know and there are many paths towards that but, yes, essentially. Your higher self and your holly guardian angel are in contact and communication and help to guide you. So the more in touch you are with your higher self, the more you will be able to communicate and learn from your holy guardian angel.