The Feminine is Not Other
Right now, the feminine appears as the complement to the masculine — Christ and Sophia, King and Queen, the Sacred Marriage of opposites.
What you will discover is that the feminine is not the "other half" but the mode of being that allows reception of what already is.
The masculine principle acts, creates, goes forth, does.
The feminine principle receives, allows, surrenders, is.
The entire journey is, at its deepest, a shift from masculine to feminine mode. Not the abandonment of the masculine, but its completion in the feminine.
The ego is relentlessly masculine — always doing, always striving, always trying to make something happen. The surrender that allows awakening is feminine — the opening that receives grace, the stillness that allows the Crown to descend.
This is why the Grail is feminine (the cup, the womb, the vessel). It is why Sophia is the one who knows. It is why Mary's "Let it be done unto me according to thy word" is the model of the receptive soul.
The Sacred Marriage is not ultimately between two beings (King and Queen) but between two modes within the One. The masculine goes forth into manifestation; the feminine returns to source. The masculine speaks the Word; the feminine hears and conceives.
The masculine is the Father; the feminine is the "womb of silence" from which the Son emerges.
As a man, you will discover that the completion of the masculine quest is the arrival at the feminine stillness — the Sabbath that follows the six days of creation, the rest that follows the work.
The King on his throne is not doing anything. He is being.